RoOoOosE's profile▒▓►ஐ๑▒▓►ஐ๑ROSE๑ஐ◄▓▒๑ஐ◄▓▒PhotosBlogListsMore ![]() | Help |
|
|
July 10 WhAt..?What Passion Burns In Your Soul
What Lies Behind Your Eyes
![]() In your eyes, people can't seem to see anything because your eyes are covered up by tears! You are constantly hurt and depressed... No one seems to understand how you feel because everyone is scared to get close to you... You long to be able to reach out and tell someone everything, and all of your problems... But you have no one to tell, or they just don't seem to want to hear what you have to say. You've been hurt many times that you don't seem to have any tears left to shed, or if you do, they're an endless river flowing... You've started to hide and bottle up all or your problems and feelings, hoping that maybe they just will go away... You want company, but at the same time, you're scared of it. Your sanctuary is your room where you can just be alone and try to throw away all of your aching pains. You're dark and mysterious and people like you for that reason. Even if you think you're all by yourself in the dark, someone is always there with you. Your special someone wants to admit and show their feelings towards you, but they're afraid of how you'll take it. Get out more and enjoy life because, it is far too long to frown your way through :) What Lies Behind Your Eyes? BeInG aLoNe
A lot has been happening since new year on this side. I have only one new year's resolution... to not give any person alcohol poisoning...
On New Year's day I reminiced the past year. I got assaulted, Both my grans died, My niece was born and my sister now sits in the DRC, deployed there by the army, and lately things in the DRC have not looked good. I met awesome friends over the internet and met them personally. I was rebellious and at times very reckless with my own life....
I decided there and then, to put 2005 behind me and start 2006 on a high note. The Lunartech new years party was absolutely fabulous!! Thanks to Jean and Francois for inviting me...it was an experience and a half.
I changed my attitude regarding my workplace and open myself up to the fact that I'm worth so much more than I give myself credit to...Oh, and I got my tongue ring, finally!!!
Then you have days like these, where it is rainy in SA, and you have the world to think about things... wondering if indeed you will be able to succeed...
You realise that you cannot change the world and that at times you do create your own destiny...but most of the times, Other's influence your whole destiny and you have no control over it. People can be such manipulative figures and you are just another pawn in their board game. You wanna be so much more... but the more you try to keep your head up, the more you drown....
So...as you gathered, already a lot has happened in 2006 that makes me think that maybe I don't deserve better... maybe I have all that I can be. Maybe there is no greater plan... just maybe this road has come to an end...
After I got hurt for opening myself to people, once again I find myself at the crossroads... Going back to my dark side, the only place I know that I can be myself and no one will judge me, sometimes life can be so damn cruel, people can be so damn cruel. I'm going back to the Underworld...the only real world I know...
Take care of yourselves and your loved ones! CoCo
Holiday Guestbook 2007
May 11 a7la kalam men a7la ro0o0o0osa h3h3وعدتني تبقا بقربي وما تخليني |
|
|