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July 10 BeInG aLoNe
A lot has been happening since new year on this side. I have only one new year's resolution... to not give any person alcohol poisoning...
On New Year's day I reminiced the past year. I got assaulted, Both my grans died, My niece was born and my sister now sits in the DRC, deployed there by the army, and lately things in the DRC have not looked good. I met awesome friends over the internet and met them personally. I was rebellious and at times very reckless with my own life....
I decided there and then, to put 2005 behind me and start 2006 on a high note. The Lunartech new years party was absolutely fabulous!! Thanks to Jean and Francois for inviting me...it was an experience and a half.
I changed my attitude regarding my workplace and open myself up to the fact that I'm worth so much more than I give myself credit to...Oh, and I got my tongue ring, finally!!!
Then you have days like these, where it is rainy in SA, and you have the world to think about things... wondering if indeed you will be able to succeed...
You realise that you cannot change the world and that at times you do create your own destiny...but most of the times, Other's influence your whole destiny and you have no control over it. People can be such manipulative figures and you are just another pawn in their board game. You wanna be so much more... but the more you try to keep your head up, the more you drown....
So...as you gathered, already a lot has happened in 2006 that makes me think that maybe I don't deserve better... maybe I have all that I can be. Maybe there is no greater plan... just maybe this road has come to an end...
After I got hurt for opening myself to people, once again I find myself at the crossroads... Going back to my dark side, the only place I know that I can be myself and no one will judge me, sometimes life can be so damn cruel, people can be so damn cruel. I'm going back to the Underworld...the only real world I know...
Take care of yourselves and your loved ones! TrackbacksThe trackback URL for this entry is: http://cid-ba4d339d82a634dd.spaces.live.com/blog/cns!BA4D339D82A634DD!301.trak Weblogs that reference this entry
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